Some of us, we're hardly ever here

The rest of us, we're born to disappear

How do I stop myself from being just a number

How will I hold my head to keep from going under?

John Mayer - Vultures

A year ago I got my very first studio, and as a housewarming gift a coworker gave me a massive plant. I thought for sure it wouldn't make it through the first month because I don't have a green thumb, and as i feared, it started dying and I thought I'd have to throw it out. Fortunately, a friend of mine came by and helped me bring it back to life. Slowly but surely it started to become healthy, and just today, to my utter amazement, I noticed what looked like a whole new stem sprouting.

These last few months have been tough as I've been struggling with a major quarter life crisis. Professionally, I feel stagnant. I'm going in circles with my love life. And I can't figure out "my calling." I've been out of college for four years now, and I so badly want to move upward but I often find myself stuck. Seeing these sprouts was a good reminder that growth is happening all the time, even when i don't realize it. I need to have more confidence in myself that i too am growing, even though I may not realize it or be able to explain it.

Unless of course those aren't sprouts growing at all but some creepy insect nest and/or gross weed. Then that's a whole different story :)